WE BECAME YOUR FAMILY WHEN YOU DIED
IF I WERE A NEUTRON STAR
| IMPOSSIBLE GRAVE _______________________________________________________ Wasn’t six feet—wasn’t even four, but it was done. The others were waiting, were gathered around the impossible grave without the pretension of lanterns and such. Joel jumped in and looked around, hands on hips, kicking the walls. “Deep enough for me.” They grabbed his arms and pulled him out before his imagination could take hold and unleash horrid scenes that would pull at his eyelids during the night. But it was done. ANIMALS _______________________________________________________ We are living We are living here Just like animals We love the darkness This is happening This is happening We are living We are living here In oblivion We are floating In the afterglow In the afterglow In this family This is everything We are living We are living here JOEL FOUND HIS ANGEL COWERING IN THE GARDEN _______________________________________________________ Joel found his angel cowering in the garden—a pathetic ball of shivering feathers. “Fuck me,” he mumbled, disgusted with the possibility now realized. Out came the shovel. It sat and watched as the stars hummed back a melody to the rhythm of digging, of removing earth to make room for the impossible. The ground was hard and he had to break past the frost and frozen layers. He figured he’d have to break the wings to get them in, to get it to fit. This, however, was not without a struggle. Joel approached, throwing his shadow upon the angel that balled itself tightly and lowered its eyes like a dog. “Come on, get in.” Nothing doing. Only stared out from under itself, wrapping its wings around the shoulders to the chest. “Get in,” Joel repeated, same pitch, same determination, same mission. The backyard was dark but Joel’s eyes were dilated from adrenaline and his eyes were sharp, sharp enough to notice what the angel had clutched in its fist. “What you doing with that?” Joel’s voice quivered and broke, now on the defensive. Slowly and with calculated determination, he shifted position, came up strong and stood awkwardly and broken in front of Joel, both like statues in the garden, casting out long shadows from the light of distant stars. Its eyes still cast down, down towards the pit Joel had dug—a pit that now seemed he dug for himself. RIOTS _______________________________________________________ If I’m no less than an easy target In the face of distant riots Then our beds won’t keep us quiet In a scene of distant riots In a scene of one less tragic All this rush, all this panic BROKEN _______________________________________________________ I am the king of off the cuff I get so broken on this stuff I am the only one to run I get so broken on this stuff I am so hopeless on the ones And I get so broken on this stuff And I will. I’ll die. Our lives in motion. Don’t you want another chance I get so broken on this stuff I get so broken on this stuff And I will. I’ll die Don’t you want another chance THE ECLIPSE ________________________________________ Thirty-five summers ago, when we had the life Thirty-five summers to go, until we die ST. JUDE _______________________________________________________ The ground will break your fall CRIMES _______________________________________________________ If you left now Prints will show And the stories Will unfold If you left now They will know And the crime tape Would unroll I have made the wish to make the panic calm Wasn’t enough for you Crimes can make you wish that you did something wrong If you left now Prints will show All our secrets They will know I have made the wish to make the panic calm Wasn’t enough for you Crimes can make you wish that you did something wrong Wasn’t enough for you Time can sew the stitch to make your motive strong Wasn’t enough for you I could make you wish that you did something wrong THIS IS THE LAST NIGHT _______________________________________________________ This is the last night of our lives Waiting to be lifted This is the last night that we’ll know There’s nothing left to stop us But part of you should know that I feel divine Though all the ones you knew are gone tonight This is the last night that we’ll know This is the last night that we’ll see Waiting to be lifted And a part of you should know the cost of your goodbye And all that we could show, our bones will deny And all that we have known belongs to the night And one of you will show that you were built to die REQUIEM _______________________________________________________ Crushing the things we know Crushed like broken stones Crushing the things we know Crushed like broken bones Why do you look so sad when you lie to yourself Crushing the things we know Why do you look so sad when you lie to yourself I’m dying up the stairs so why do you look so sad When you die and I see you And I am overwhelmed |
| IN THE GARDEN OF THE SKYLINE ASSASSINS _______________________________________________________ CUT LIPS ON GLASS SPOONS I'M BLEEDING IN TUNE I'M THE SKYLINE IN RUIN I'M THE GARDEN ALIVE YOU'RE FAILING NOW FIGHT THE GREAT FIGHT SOMEWHERE PAPER IS BURNING SOMEWHERE CHAMBERS ARE TURNING I WON'T FIGHT YOU HERE YOU'LL AIM ALL ALONE A CORNER WHERE WE CAN RISE _______________________________________________________ I'M THE BOY ON THE STAIRS WHERE I GO NO ONE DIES HERE (IS THIS THE RIGHT TIME, IS IT ALL RIGHT) I'M THE VOICE ON THE STAIRS ON A POINT ON A CROSS-HAIR WHERE I GO NO ONE DIES HERE WHERE I GO THERE'S NO SAVING ME WE ROSE TOO FAST (EVERYONE IS SAVED) THE STREETS _______________________________________________________ THE STAR BEGAN TO BLAZE JUST LIKE IT DID THE FIRST DAY AND I SAW EVERYONE FADE I WAS ON THE STREET I WAS ON THE STREET WHEN EVERYONE BURNED AWAY AND THE SUN BEGAN TO CHANGE ITS NAME I WAS ON THE STREET I'LL BEGIN TO FADE I'LL FADE AWAY FOR GOOD THE ONE DAY THAT YOU SAID YOU'D GO IT WAS BEAUTIFULLY IN TUNE YOU STARTED IT OUT RIGHT AND SHATTERED ON THE STREET AND ALL OF THE ANGELS HAVE SAID THEY WOULD HIDE YOU FROM THE LIGHT THEY STARTED IT OUT RIGHT THEN LEFT ME ON THE STREET (FALL BACK IN YOUR DREAMS AGAIN) (YOU'VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO GO) I BEGIN TO FADE I FADE AWAY FOR GOOD SARAH IS A STATE OF MIND _______________________________________________________ OVER MY MIND'S EYE SARAH'S GOT IT ALL WORKED OUT YOU SLAM THE DOOR SHUT TO BREAK IT THROUGH NO ONE HEARS YOU AT LEAST ONE IS DOWN CELLAR STAIRS I CAN HANDLE THE STRONG PLEADING TOO I'LL TEASE GOD WHEN I WANT ADVICE CAUSE I WARNED YOU WHERE I'D SLEEP TONIGHT SARAH, YOU WERE ALWAYS LATE IN HER RED SHOES SARAH'S GOT IT ALL NOW SLAM THE DOOR SHUT TO BREAK IT THROUGH KISS THE ROPE YOU'RE TIED DOWN WE HAVE BECOME THE INEXPLICABLE _______________________________________________________ MAYBE THE FLAGS WAVE US ALONG EVERYONE'S VOICE CARRIES THE COST GIVE UP THE TONGUE SING US THIS SONG WE HAVE BECOME ALL THAT WE'VE LOST FAVORITE FLAWS LUCKY TO TELL EMPTY PARADE INTO THE WRONG EAR TO THE FLOOR HAND TO THE BELL WE HAVE BECOME US ALL ALONG RAISE UP YOUR ARMS WE'RE TAKING ON FIRE RAISE YOUR ARMS IT'S ALL I AM THE SUN DIVINE _______________________________________________________ THE CROWD HAS DIED THE LOVE IS DEAD BUT DOWN ON THE EAST SIDE WE PRAY FOR COLDER SKIES AND ALL'S SAFE THE SUN WARMED US OVER AND I WON'T CHANGE IF YOU WERE CONSTANT (WHO WILL YOU CALL ON WHEN SUNS WARM US OVER) PRAY FOR COLD SKIES A NEW LOVE TO SAVE US TWENTY-ONE _______________________________________________________ YOUR EYES ARE DANCING WITH ME YOUR EYES WILL CUT RIGHT THROUGH ME YOUR EYES ARE DANCING WITH ME I AM NOT THAT SAFE YOUR EYES WILL CUT RIGHT THROUGH ME I AM NOT THAT SAFE WE'RE TWENTY-ONE YEARS INTO THIS I CAN CONCENTRATE THAT SOMEONE SOON WILL LEAD YOU TO THE END AND I HAVE NOT BACKED DOWN FOR YEARS YOU'RE TAKING ALL THE THRILLS AWAY (DON'T YOU WANT THE LOVE THAT YOU GET DON'T YOU) I'M THE CHALK OUTLINE DRAWN BEFORE THE CRIME I HAVE LOST IT ALL WINGS AND GUNS _______________________________________________________ YOU KNOW WE TRY TO SEE IT OVER THE HILLS AND HIGH UP STATE THE ANGELS CAME AND TOOK THEIR AIM UPON THE TWO-WAY MIRROR AND EVERYONE IN SIGHT KNELT DOWN WINGS AND GUNS IN THE REFLECTION THE CONTENDER _______________________________________________________ IT'S YOUR PURPOSE IT'S YOUR CAUSE TO WIPE THE DIRT CLEAN IT'S YOUR FIGHT IT'S YOUR CAUSE TO SEE IT YOUR WAY BOUGHT TWO JARS ONE FOR THE DIRT YOU KEEP CLEAN IF NOT FOR HORIZONS I COULDN'T TAKE IT IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE THE FINAL SAY AGAINST YOUR WORD COME OUT AND PLAY IT'S YOUR SURFACE IT'S YOUR FIGHT IT'S YOUR CAUSE TO WIPE THE DIRT CLEAN THE FEAR THAT MAKES YOU FIGHT THE FALLING OF THE SATELLITE EDGE OF THE BLANKET _______________________________________________________ THE SUN HAS A PLACE ON YOUR BED WE'VE GOT TO FIND A WAY OUT HIGH UP IN BLACK COUNTY TOWERS _______________________________________________________ IN THE TOWER ABOVE I SEE THE GHOST SILHOUETTE ARMS IN CHAINS AND SOMEHOW STILL I WAIT TO SEE IT CLOSE LYING ON THE WINDOW SLEEPING SARAH'S GONE YOU'RE MY SHOULDER I WAS THE ONLY ONE TO PRESSURE YOU IN THE TOWER ABOVE I SEE THE GHOST HAZY OUTSTRETCHED ARMS REACHING OUT TO YOU OPEN THE GARDEN OUT-SLEEP THE NIGHT CRIMES THAT WOULD SAVE YOU NOW I'LL BE WAITING SOMEWHERE ELSE IN PARADISE I WON'T TAKE I WON'T BREAK BUT SOON THEY'LL FIND A WAY INTO THE SEA WHILE YOU'RE SLEEPING SARAH'S GONE YOU STOOD FOR NOTHING I WAS THE ONLY ONE TO PRESSURE YOU DIEGO DREAMS OF MURDER _______________________________________________________ SOMEONE'S GOT A KNIFE I WAS DREAMING SO MUCH FOR THE NIGHT I WOKE SCREAMING SO MUCH FOR THE NIGHT YOU DON'T NEED MY STORIES SOMEONE HOLD ME TIGHT NIGHTMARES AREN'T DEAD THIS MORNING I WOKE UP I WAS SOMEWHERE ELSE I AM SINGING SONGS AGAIN ARE YOU SINGING SONGS UNTIL THEY ALL SURROUND YOU _______________________________________________________ I GUESS THIS ONE'S OVER I GUESS I'LL STAY THIS ONE'S COMING STAY ALL THE SILENCE BREAKS WITH SIRENS WE'RE SURROUNDED I'M THE ASHES AND THE FIRE LOCK THE DOOR DEAR (SHE NEEDS TO KNOW) I GUESS THIS ONE'S OVER I GUESS I'LL STAY UNTIL THEY ALL SURROUND YOU I AM ALWAYS IN CONTROL STATEMENT _______________________________________________________ WHEN THE MORNING CAME THERE WAS NOTHING THERE BUT A SYMPHONY PHOTOGRAPHS AND LOVERS' NOTES WERE SENT TO ME IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN YOU BETTER LET US SET YOU UP IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO SAY YOU SAW IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN YOU KNOW WE HAVE TO RAISE YOU ONE IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO BITE YOUR TONGUE WHEN THE MORNING CAME WE WERE NOT SAVED BUT WE WERE MEANT TO BE IN THE DARKNESS OF THE BRIGHTEST DAWN IT WAS SENT TO ME IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN WE'RE NEVER GOING TO LET YOU KNOW IF YOU'RE EVER GOING TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO WRITE YOUR NOTE IF YOU EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR SON AGAIN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO TRACE THIS CALL SO TELL ME WHEN YOU SEE YOUR SON AGAIN IF SOMETHING INSIDE YOU BROKE ON A STATEMENT YOU CAST ORDINARY (YOU CAN'T TAKE THIS STANDING UP) |